Josh Motorcycle

God gave me a dream to show me he’s not sending me to Houston because I’d make money, move Josh in and he’d buy a motorcycle and would end up hurt. He’s doing something else with Josh and asking me to trust him.

Glenn is helping him and I don’t know why or where it will lead but I thank you God and the angels for what your’e doing.

I sent the video to Roger. I didn’t get a response but its ok. He keeps sending me videos on Facebook and I’m going to be silent for now.

Tamera started reading the book. I’m not sure what will come of it.

I have a meeting with Jason and the trucking guys tomorrow. I give that to God and will keep quiet and listen.

I’m seeing the bad dreams are all showing me what God is saving me from. When something doesn’t work out or I’m disappointed and asking him why I’ll typically get a bad dream that will show me the danger. I saw it years ago when I was going to move to LA and didn’t get the house. God showed me i’d be 200 lbs with D while he’s at Dodgers every night. I saw it when Jason called and took the offer back. I had a bad dream that night that my son was in a motorcycle accident. God is showing me the warnings in these dreams not to scare me but to show me what he’s saving me from and why he’s not giving me the answers to things I’m hoping for.

I had a vision that I’d be happy here one day and wearing a red swimsuit with a film crew and then another one where I was with my son and he’s older and has a baby. I was in a beautiful backyard and I was happily in love too. I had a dream last time at my mothers that I went after D when he had a car accident on the race track – my father was sweeping away the debris as I ran to look for him and another man tackled me and I saw his eyes and was immediately in recognition of who he is. Maybe God wanted to show me that chasing after D was part of the plan and the one he’s sending to me will catch me on this trail. I need not seek for him. God is sending him to me at the perfect time.

So maybe I shouldn’t guilt myself for coming here. Maybe everything I’m doing is exactly what God had written in my story. And maybe I’ll soon she that glorious day where love tackles me and I look back and everythign makes sense.