Days Go By
Seeking God’s Miracles

Here I write my heart and my prayers – for a Malibu Miracle.

Angry at the Enabler

When someone helps you and they desire to control you, rather than teach you life skills and cause you to be independent and make decisions on your own, they are harming you in a major way. More often then not our desire to protect, provide…

Twenty Year Time Portal

Malibu Miracle, TESTIMONIES OF JESUS

Today is the day of remembrance. I go back to December 21st, 1995. This was the night the world became too heavy for me to carry the burdens anymore. My family life was horrible - my mother had just delivered my little sister…

It Ends with Me

On the other side of all the pain I've endured from the hands and mouth of my mother, I get to make a choice. It ends with me. I won't sacrifice my kids for a cinderella story or make them feel like they're shameful to be alive. I'll never…

What to Do

I see it. But I don't know what to do about it. I see the vulnerability that leads to victimhood. I see the separation of families brought about by taking in content where pornography and sex exploitation is normalized. I see the women…

TTonight is Day 3

I let Dave go tonight and I thank God for the ending as they all have been changed in their hearts and convicted to let me go. Now I have a clean slate. Now I am free. Tomorrow is the first day of the beginning of miracles. I'm excited…

Only 3 Remain

Yesterday my Papa passed over. I went to the beach to roller blade and collected some burnt sticks and stones when I left. Then I started to craft a light I planned to make with the idea to sell it at a store. But today the image I used…

Dreams 818

I had a dream last night I recall only a little of. In my dream I saw Tamra cleaning her house and removing rugs to sweep up all the stuff underneath it. I felt bad in the dream because I didn't clean the floors before she got home. Then…

Anxiety is not my portion

Spent hours trying to fix my Texas drivers license situation. So many things go wrong with Texas. I also feel the fear from the home owner and my family there - all talking about warnings and death. I don't want to live in that. I heard…

Hope for the WOF House

Tonight I went to the creative event at Believe LA Church. I saw a panel of famous music producers, actresses and producers talk about their fame and the walk with God in it. Then I got home, opened my instagram with intent just a leave a…

To Write the Truth

Jesus is Lord, Malibu Miracle

The last 24 hours have been quite amazing and as I begin this post, I am compelled to write what I have just scribbled onto a notebook pad. "Write the truth and the whole truth.. My Blessings & My Fury". - Said the Lord to me. "I…

Lawlessness

COME, Malibu Miracle

The law was killed on the cross. He came to fulfill the law and then we were given much time to contemplate what that means. To lose the desire to war over another but instead to love. To have no expectations in love, to carry no blame towards…

Demonizing the Other

My greatest fear is abandonment. It's also the thing that's happened over and over. And because of that, it's a huge deal to be vulnerable. When the one comes along who strips away that outer layer you feel naked. And that's exactly what…

When God Says No

I've been looking for the miracle for years now. I kept pursuing healing in my ex-husband even until the end as I was being attacked and discarded. I've been praying for my family to somehow be brought back together (me and my kids). I've…

Trying to Stay Positive

I'm trying so hard to count my blessings. The hope I felt when Stefanie said, "let's go get your boy," is gone. She told me that her pyshic friend advised her to not let me work with her. I was confused and crushed. I'd been looking for…

The Word as the Way

Jesus is Lord, Malibu Miracle

This morning my son called me very upset. He woke up early this morning because my mother said she'd take him to the DMV to get his expired license renewed so that he could start a job he's been trying to start for nearly 3 weeks now. She…

No Longer Needed

I guess this how my Granny must have felt in her final days here on earth. She used to always say, "People only call when they need something. Otherwise you never hear from nobody." I thought about it today - if I could remember ever seeing…

Cinderella

Jesus is Lord, Malibu Miracle

Today, I do believe I'm Cinderella. And just like Cinderella, when her mother and her father passed away, it was the wicked stepsisters who tried to destroy her and make her a slave. And I'm also Rose in the Titanic. Everyone that the Council…

Reset to 17

For the first time tonight in years of confusion and seeking, I believe God has given me access to a glimpse into what he's been setting up for me all along. I wrote as my last chapter that I wish I could go back to age 17 with all of the…

Promised Land

In speaking with my ex-husband today and praying together over the phone for protection and a path of light and life for our children, followed by watching the video back of clips from him in the hospital and his healing there-after, I realize…

Online Scam

Tamra showed me a guy she'd been talking to from a dating site. She told me a couple of weeks ago that his image had appeared to her in a dream before she met him online. "Maybe it's too good to be true," she said to me. I remember when…

Wall of Hope

All I have right now of my children is a wall of photos. My son is Dana Point and he's asked me to not call him anymore. When we speak he's angry and lashes out at me for trying to help him with jobs and doctor appointments. Yesterday he…

Vision of Love

I was reminded of my son's vision. He was healed on a beach, had a woman who loved him on his couch at home and he worked construction. This isn't my place to touch what's on his heart. That's God's design and will at work. Likewise,…

He’s Gone

It's 12:37 a.m. in Philadelphia - home of the Eagles. Just two days ago I told Josh on the drive from LAX after we dropped his sister off at the airport and went to the parking lot to feel the jets landing above us my connection to the house…

Job for Josh

God has been telling me for a while now to "Let go and let God" through a number of sources. He's safe with a room and roof over his head here at Tamra's. He needs a lot but the basic place to stay is for now secure. She's loving and understanding…

Coming to LA

As soon as I completed my writing in the blog last night, I received a horrible phone call from Glenn. I asked him how my son was doing and asked him if I needed to get him a hotel room since he had given his room and bed to a visitor that…

Sarah and Sam

Today I received a gift I wasn't expecting. Roger texted asking for my Zelle and said he was selling my washer and dryer to a couple for $500. A few minutes later I received the alert that the money had been received and immediately I thought…

Day of 17

Today has been a day of 17 - over and over again. It was the gate at every single flight I flew, the number on the jersey flashing over a screen of the Dodger Stadium going wild and even the room number I ended up with tonight; 917. As…

LA to Texas

As I arrived in Spokane today after a night that was extremely difficult, I picked up the pen and started to write God a letter. I told him thank you for sending people in my life who are willing to help me and my son. Then my phone rang…

Ball

I'm not the only one chasing a story. It's the reason we're drawn to chaos and bad news in the first place; we want to make sure we don't miss the set-up scene before the hero enters the plot and saves the day. There's no error in the pursuit,…

Security in Seat 37 A

I was called out today, leaving Dana Point on essentially no sleep at 1:30 a.m. wake up to report for standby at 4:30 in LA. Then immediately after my check-in I was assigned a turn to New York where I worked the first flight and did a deadhead…

The Son & The Gift

The one thing I've wanted most in recent years is to have someone to talk to who understands. More than a listener or even a voice of confidence, I've longed for a guide - a wiseman to come along and say to me, "I've been where you are and…

Facing the Fear

I could hardly breathe last night trying to bring myself to a place of calm where I could drift away into sleep - the place where I don't have to think through the revelations that are washing over me as a tidal wave now. On his way home,…

Back to 43

Today was a good day. I wrote the letter on my first flight and cried it out. Then I received an epiphany of what Jesus meant when he said "sin no more." To see this mystery I needed to first simply what it was he did for her. He rescued…

Running with God

I need a miracle. Perhaps that's the reason I felt compelled to buy the domain "Malibu Miracle" last week as I woke up in my new room I'm renting from a script writer in Woodland Hills California. The Malibu tie-in comes from a moment of…