I’ve thought a lot about what it means to walk in the will of my Father in Heaven over the last 5 years. I once thought it was all about doing good for others. I would literally run myself into the ground trying to be a good person to everyone I loved and strangers too. I thought my task was to set a good example for others – post all of my good deeds on Facebook and volunteer my time and resources when possible to help a friend or a neighbor.

I don’t think there’s anything wrong with anything I wrote above, expect the motives of the heart. In time and through devastating trials I learned that in doing good I was creating a list in my mind subconsciously to place God in my debt. And so, when tragedy struck my life I was quite confused and even became angry with God. I didn’t feel I deserved such horrific circumstances because “I AM”…. a good person.

But Jesus said that NOT ONE is good – he even told them to not call him good “only the Father in Heaven is good.”
And if God’s understanding and my understanding are not the same thing as the Bible teaches, than how can I even say what’s good and bad? Who am I to judge anything in the limitations of my own thoughts and beliefs?

Today I have a different idea of what it means to walk in the Will of God – and see God more like a Father of a small child, clueless and unwise (which would be me). Walking in his will perhaps is more like the behavior of a child who goes to school, learns things in class, makes friends, plays on the playground, receives lessons from peers and strangers and then climbs on her daddy’s lap at night to tell him about her day and ask him what’s true and false. May daughter once came home so upset about a science project because it went against something I had taught her about spiritual matters. I gave her the confirmation of what I perceived to be truth and she was at ease. It didn’t bother her what other people said or did – she just wanted guidance for herself on how she should handle the situation. I gave her advice and her stress was gone. She did what her mom told her and didn’t question my guidance because she knows how much I love her. Kids go to the source of love for understanding, guidance and truth and they trust their parents because of love. And if I believe God loves me more than I even love myself, why would I want anyone but GOD to be my guide in this obstacle course called life?

Seeking the Lord in all things – our wonderful counselor and the FATHER who created us and knew us before he formed us inside of our mothers’s wombs. He says to lean not on our own understanding.

It takes courage to walk in God’s will – to seek him in prayer and wait for Him to show us the way, to heal our hearts and our minds and our bodies and refuse to follow any voice here on earth unless our Father confirms the testimonies of others and reveals their hearts to us first.

In this decree I make tonight, I ask the Lord to do the following…

Father, I know your plans for me are good and that you are working all things for my good. I want to walk in that plan willingly and confidently with discernment that can only come for you. God I ask you to poor your Holy Spirit into me and give me eyes to see and ears to hear beyond the carnal mind and the limitations of my perception in what is good or evil. I admittedly know nothing about good or evil in my own knowledge, strength or attempts to solve problems in my life or the lives of others.

I ask you to reveal the hearts of others to me as they come and go – and to show me what you would have me accept in love or walk away from, also in love. I ask you to not lead me into temptation, to open the doors you wish for me to walk through and to close the ones that are not the path you have laid out before me. I ask you to silence my thoughts, my judgements, my preconceived notions and predictions of what is to come, rooted in pride and fear rather than Holy Wisdom from you.

I ask these things in Jesus name.