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The law was killed on the cross. He came to fulfill the law and then we were given much time to contemplate what that means. To lose the desire to war over another but instead to love. To have no expectations in love, to carry no blame towards others and to never see ourselves as a victim to the stories within our lives is to know that none of it truly matters because we are eternal in him.

We always have the chance to begin again. We always have another chapter awaiting us and we always have new love branching forth from the seeds of what we lose. And if I can know this, then what reason do I have to fear love? Let it come, let it flow and if it’s time let it go. Then welcome it again.

Today I have love in places that cause pain because I look back and ask myself if there’s anything I didn’t do or could’ve done more. And then I guilt myself for what I know is still love. I don’t hate anyone – even those who hurt me the most still occupy a part of my heart and I’m grateful for the experiences we had together. And I know I have to let that be as it is. It’s beautiful in its own way.

I also have new love that’s not yet defined. It might grow into something beautiful or it might just fade away into the foggy clouds of the unknown that lingers in all things that come, go and we let flow. I have learned that holding on tightly doesn’t make it so. And running away doesn’t make it disappear. Because love lives on the inside of us and so wherever we go, there it is with us. I have also learned that I can’t fix everything that’s broken and not all pain is meant for me to see and do. But maybe I’m just meant to hold a space of empathy and be a good listener without a response when no solution is given to me.

Dare I saw that Lawlessness is Love? No boundaries. No rules. No judgements. No required outcome. A beautiful broken mess of something growing, changing and evolving in a space where there is nothing I need to label as wrong. It’s just God’s masterpiece unfolding before me. And if I judge nothing outside of myself then perhaps I will no longer have the need to judge myself.

In all things, only God knows my heart. He knows I want the best for everyone and would never in my truest form wish pain or suffering upon another. I may not have the same draw to the ones who walk in pride but there is nothing to give someone who believes they need for nothing. So what purpose do I have with these? It’s in the ones who have a need that we can give of ourselves and therefore experience the love within our own beings. To be still and be quiet and wait for the invitation to give our love is quite the challenge for me.

I love giving. If I could spend the rest of my days giving I’d be a very happy woman. To cause another to feel good or to wear a smile is the most beautiful experience I’ve found in this life. There is nothing greater than this one thing. It is the fruits of thy labor, even if the moment is brief it is nonetheless magnificent.

In this second day of my fast as I seek to empty my cup and be baptized by the living water that cleanses me from all that I leave behind and creates in me a space for the new, I ponder what resurrection means to me. I believe it means seeking a higher love; being made ready to receive more of that beautiful substance called love that shines so bright it has the capacity to transform even the darkest of rooms. It’s why I came here to California. Love. I followed a seed that was planted in my heart and I prayed and believed that it would be watered in this place somehow. The scripture that was circulating in my thoughts without ceasing was this…..

18“Do not call to mind the former things; pay no attention to the things of old. 19Behold, I am about to do something new; even now it is coming. Do you not see it? Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness and streams in the desert. 20The beasts of the field will honor Me, the jackals and the ostriches, because I provide water in the wilderness and rivers in the desert, to give drink to My chosen people.… – Isaiah 43:19

So here I am; once again tested with the option to go back or walk forward now believing that God is doing something amazing that I can’t yet see. Texas was my home and where I have so much love for those God gave to me to love in the first half of my life. But to walk through the ashes of yesterday over and over again, wishing to relive a past that’s left me far behind is to not trust that God is doing a new thing now.

I wait upon the Lord and ask my heart to be courageous and know that love will never deceive me. To follow love is never a mistake. To hope for love is very reason hope exists. To walk in faith for love is to seek the kingdom within and to be rescued by love is the ultimate Promised Land on the other side of all the pain endured along the path.

Maybe I live in the pages of a Hallmark movie as many would call naive and foolish. But I’d rather believe in the story of love than to cast my pearls before swine and give all that I am to the temporary pleasure in being rewarded with material possessions. In my heart I believe one doesn’t exist without the other. If love is the foundation of my purpose then love will reward me with all the desires of my heart inside and outside. Love is my reason. Love is my flame that sparks creativity for new ventures and love is my home that can never be uprooted or destroyed.

Let me be love as my Father in Heaven is love and his will is for not one to be lost and separated from Love.

So my prayer today is that God would wash away all that’s not love inside of me. And that I will be made new, like a little child who’s never before known what it’s like to bleed. I pray that my heart will be made fearless and I will have nothing in me that doesn’t speak, do and shine love’s bright light out into everything I touch.

May LOVE be the only law that governs me from this day forward.

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