Online Scam

Tamra showed me a guy she’d been talking to from a dating site. She told me a couple of weeks ago that his image had appeared to her in a dream before she met him online. “Maybe it’s too good to be true,” she said to me. I remember when she told me about seeing in his image in a dream how I’d made so many decisions based on an image in a dream too. Well, many of them.

David was in my dream in 2019. I thought it meant he was sent from God to love me. That dream made me trust it and that trust made me follow dream upon dream until I finally ended up here with nothing. I have no relationship with him and as I type this I feel so stupid in the most recent events as it’s pretty clear this man has been playing me like a chess piece. He freaked out when he saw that I had a video of him snoring in bed, not because he’s insecure but because he’s hiding something. He won’t allow me to know his address. He disappears for days at a time and back in February after the big night at the Malibu rocks when I tagged him in a picture he immediately took it down and then I received a message from a blocked account telling me that he was a player and she was seeing him too.

Why have I chosen to keep my eyes covered and pretended to believe in him? Is a story that powerful?

I also had the S man appear in several dreams. And I guess that fantasy is the reason I push so hard to have my book turned into a film. I believed if I could just do the things that I saw in a fictionary vision then I could receive the reward on the other side. How foolish of me…..

I don’t want to dream anymore. I don’t want to allow myself to keep believing in fables and lies. I have hurt myself so much in hoping for things that clearly aren’t real.

Foolish girl. Stop it.